Steel Bowl Vs Glass Bowl

Hmmm....When you step into teaching, people always congrates you for having a "steel bowl". Guess many will understand if you are a government servant. Work is secure and will have a steady income. Though some post will have slightly some terms and conditions but mostly it will be very safe till you retire and get your pension.

When I receive the news of being tutor, i see this as an opportunity to gain better future. Yet after some time making it clear, tutor post can simply be explained as "glass bowl"- nice to see, nice to hold, once broken consider sold. Haha. This is what i always saw in the shops that display a lot glass items.


Though it is a really good opportunity, yet it promises me nothing but a contract of 2 years. Plus one of the terms-“ You may be terminated any time without any reason”， really make me stunned some time. This "glass bowl" may crack any time. Haha. It may look nice and beautiful from appearance but it is full of risks.



Guess I am just not the type that can take this risk and go for it. I wonder if after 2 years and become jobless, what can I do? I have considered a lot and asked a lot people. Some encourage me and some consult me. Thanks to all my friends for your advice. I am also thankful for being given this opportunity for me to consider deeply. Now is time for me to look into my job and make sure I be the best form. I end this with some Chinese saying as below.

选你所爱，爱你所选，行行出状元。。。。。。

Never cry for spilled milk.

Well, I do have some couples of memories that I regret of. It is always because I made the wrong choice and I did the wrong stuff. But the past will never change again so it is useless to waste time and think about it.

Now a similar situation occurs to me again. It happens to me that the post I applied months ago finally give me a green light and I am offered being a tutor in a local university with promise on free master study. This is really tempting. Though the teaching life for me now is very comfortable and I am kind of indulge myself with the benefits. I still feel some part inside me empty, I want something more, may be it is the job satisfaction or the need to gain back my passion for working.

Here I list down some of the benefits for both of the choices.

Benefit of being teacher	Benefit of being tutor
1. Holiday a lot. A lot time to go for vacation. 2. Pay is quite high and working hour is very short. 3. Easy work specification. 4. Steady life and easy to master the syllabus. 5. Can earn extra through tuition.	1. Free study for master. 2. Possible to have better students. 3. Possible higher job satisfaction. 4. Possible higher pay next time. 5. Challenging life. 6. Continuous learning. 7. More promote opportunity. 8. Wilder career scope. 9. Route full of ambitious.

And of course, everything is not perfect and of course there will be accompanied with the negative side any of the choice. Here I list down some.

Negative of being teacher	Negative of being a tutor
1. Rather bored life with everyday seeing the same naughty students. 2. Slow increase in pay next time. 3. Lack of motivation towards working. 4. Need to in charge for sport and extra core curricular.	1. Most of the benefits are only “possible”. 2. Possible of highest stress. 3. Never know what will happen next. 4. A route full of no promises. 5. Possible of being fire within tutor contract period.

Hmmm…..I still have 5 more days for me to decide. Though at first I feel like going for tutor. But after thinking through, there are too much possible outcomes for that route, yet if I pick and continue be a teacher, will I regret again? Mr Loso is in dilemma

不要认为自己没有用

ANGRY

Anger always bring devastating effect. Its a terrible feeling yet many just cannot control their emotion when anger come.

I used to have anger as my motivation to be better. The last time I got angry, I went learn swimming and now a competent swimmer after a friend critic me. That don't sound so bad at all. But now, I am kind of regret why I got angry so easily, leaving behind bad image and nothing benefit at all during my Sabah trip.


I also clueless about the reason I angry for, may be it is envy, may be it is just I care too much on what people say especially friends. I should have enjoy myself to the fullest and have fun with these friends that seldom met with each other after graduation.


I think now I just angry at myself for being angry and compare myself with others. Haha. So I will use this to motivate myself for better EQ and try my best not to get angry again. Anger is just for loser. And certainly Mr Loso dont want to become Mr Loser. Haha.